Dear X…
It’s been a week since you officially broke up with me. I’ve gone through an avalanche of emotions, and I can only imagine what you’ve been going through. Several times, I’ve considered texting you to check in but I have restrained myself because I somehow sense that that isn’t what you want…. at least not yet. I have now deleted your number and blocked you everywhere to ensure that all possible means of communication is cut off (except email and probably here)…
I know I have caused you pain and I really hope that you know that I love you deeply and wholly. I doubt that’s ever going to change. I don’t even want it to. You were the love of my life and I’m sorry I let you slip through my feeble fingers. Maybe if I wasn’t too stubborn or tried to bring my walls down more for you, we would still be together. I honestly don’t agree that we aren’t compatible but if you see it that way, then I respect that.
I do care a lot about you, X and I know that you need this time apart. I don’t know how long we’d need to be apart for but one thing I do is if two people are meant to be together, the universe would conspire to make it happen. So take all the days, weeks, months, and even years you need. If eventually, you end up with someone more compatible then I’ll take my defeat with obeisance. You hurt me badly, X, but I don’t want to stay hurt. I’ve decided to take daily steps towards accepting this new reality for us. You’re not a bad person, you just made a choice you believed would be best for you and I get that…you chose you. Now, I have to keep on choosing me too. Regarding being friends, maybe we can in the future, when both of us are completely over this. I think I’ll like that too. It certainly isn’t the worst thing in the world. I thought of it as a step-down but maybe it isn’t.
Every day, I’m moving on slowly and getting better. I hope you are too. I wish you all the best of all this life could give. Thank you for loving me like you did and thank you for being my best friend for 20months. It was a valuable friendship and an unregrettable relationship.
P.s: I think I’ve had a breakthrough in my professional life..
Bye,
L
