PHASES

I have been feeling extremely crabby in the last two days. I lack the motivation to do the things I previously enjoyed doing. I’m lethargic and have no appetite. I do not want to interact with anyone or leave my room. I see myself snapping at things of no significance. I am today a shadow of my previous self.

Getting over a relationship is tough. Some days, I’m extremely happy, other days I cry myself to sleep and every other day I hate myself. I’m tired of feeling this way. The future can’t come any sooner. I wish I had all the answers and knew what to do.

I guess it’s more difficult for me because I’m not earning any money yet and I feel like a liability to my family. I have something keeping me busy now though and I love it! With my recent mood swings, I pray I don’t ruin it.

I’ve had trouble going to bed at night and I think that has disrupted my circadian rhythm. On the flip side, the series Parks and Recreation is a great company. I hope that I’m at least trying to live life a day at a time because my mind is always in the future. I guess I’d know by the time I read this article in about a year. My boss/mentor has been extremely kind and patient, I want to impress him by doing great work. I wish I had money to get a laptop now, that would make me most efficient. I loathe disappointing people.

Tomorrow I’m going for a photoshoot and I’m looking forward to it. Hurray! Hopefully, I can tell you all how it went😊. Till then, remember that you are loved and sweet. It’s okay to have bad days but don’t let them define you. They are only just transient phases❤️

Yours heartbrokenly,

L❤️